Life so far...

...so far so good?

Hey my lovesss.

I'd like to start this newsletter by apologizing. I know most of us have waited for this newsletter for so long, I know many of us waited for me to be consistent again and I'm sorry it took this long to get my spark back but I'm getting there. I hope my apology is accepted?

I wanted to document this period of my externship from the beginning to the end but I couldn't see that plan through.

I can't count how many times I've tried to write, tried to make a newsletter but my mind keeps telling me about how unworthy it is. It's either in the middle of making the newsletter or after making the newsletter. You know that thing your mind does when it starts questioning you about the relevance of what you've just written? My mind has done that a lot for a few weeks now and I have so many drafts to show for it.

Anyways, it's Friday and you won't believe I thought my externship would be ending today. Colour me shock when I met my course mates in court and they said it's ending on the 21st of this month. That's on Tuesday. Apparently, I had already planned to return home tomorrow and eat very sumptuous Afang soup. Chai!

I had fun during this externship though and the lawyers at the firm are so niceee, I love them so much because they make the whole externship stuff so easy.

There was this day we were asked to read up a case file for a divorce matter and draft a response to the Respondent's Reply. I was in shock of all the things I was reading. I told my colleague that when I become a lawyer and my client is briefing me, I might just be screaming “Ah” then I'll shift my chair closer to hear them well because what's a good gist without the perfect reaction to match the gist? This lawyer work go sweet sometimes sha o.

Eh eh, speaking of gist, lemme gist you. As if that's not what I've been doing since.

There was this day I was going to work and this bus driver was flying. When I say flying, I mean it! I was just in there swallowing spit and silently calling Jesus’ name because….my Lordddd!

That's not even the only time o. Just yesterday, I was in a bus coming back from work, at a particular roundabout there was a truck coming around with full speed, our driver didn't slow down one bit, he sped past just right in front of the truck. Likeeee this truck was this close to hitting this bus, everyone was screaming in the bus and I was so close to disappearing into thin air, my whole body was shaking. I was in front so I turned and stared at this man, he looked at me and asked me why I was overreacting! Did you guys hear that? I was overreacting after you just put my life on the line with that stupid stunt you pulled. I bet he was feeling like James Bond after that act.

On Thursday, our lawyer boss(the owner of the firm I intern at) sat us down and asked us if we would advise someone to study this law course and honestly, I said no because I won't. Whether you have passion for this course or not,my sweetheart, it will test you in so many ways so this question goes out to every law student or lawyer who'd get this newsletter, would you advise someone to study this course?

Overall, I survived this week. My mental health has been all over the place this week. I can't talk about how many times I've crashed out because I'm tired, I don't have enough time in a day, it's basically the same stressful routine everyday. I was so overwhelmed and the only thing I wanted to do as soon as I got home was shower, eat and go to bed. I had no time to do any catching up with my friends.

I was even speaking to my externship buddy that if I wasn't working I would run away from every social media platform for as long as possible.

I got an email buddy, (I won't tell you who though) and that has been my pillar this week. If you get this newsletter, I loveeee you, my baby. I can't tell you how much you've held me through this phase. You've held me from breaking and even though I feel like I do break some days, you've helped me pick myself up again and again. Thank youuuu, my baby and as they say, your own no go spoil. ✨

I loveee you all and hopefully, I'm consistent from now on. Muahhh. 🤭